The story begins, I and my ex broke up 2 years ago....but from there I am confused in life??I need advice?

me n my ex-broke up two years ago, we not on really good terms, but we talk on and off because when we talk he ends up bringin the past up and we quarrel, when we were together, i told him i love him and he was my first love,when i looked into his eyes, i felt something deep in my heart,I really did love him, but he is very sneaky, i felt he was doing things behind my back, he is not husband material, but he knows how to make a woman happy.But thats enough, Yeah and i got wit someone else after my ex.He was amazing, I thought we would last forever,he is husband material,I loved him so much but sometimes I felt that special thing for my ex once in a while, i end up missing him but he is not what I need,he is not husband material,(Im growing i need a matured man).I tried to put in my mind that what me n my ex had was nothin.Me and my current man jus broke,and what i had for my ex is coming back.I had a dream abt him, and i was happy in the dream.